Lately, it seems I’ve only been having blah runs. I keep thinking that I was way over my head signing up for this marathon thing. It doesn’t help that this Saturday I have 15 miles on the schedule (and it’ll only be 85 degrees — almost 20 degrees cooler than last Saturday!), but I have no one to run with me, unless I force Karl to suck it up and keep up my pace, which he’ll do in a heart beat, but I know he doesn’t enjoy it.
It seems like none of my old running buddies even want to run with me anymore, since they make plans with each other to run at other times. Maybe I’m too slow for them and they got faster? Maybe it’s because I’m the only coupled one in the group, so I have no fun single stories? (Like I don’t have years and years of stories behind me!) Who knows?
Yesterday I was looking forward to running home from work, since now that I only do it once a week, it seems like such a treat!
I was also excited thinking it’s been ages since I felt any pain from running — after my hip stopped flaring up, things have been great! I was even going to write a post on all the vitamins I’ve been taking, as it seems that it made a difference!
Then as soon as I started yesterday, my left achilles tendon started to bother me… I ignored it for a bit, then a mile in my left shin was also burning. I was keeping good pace (at least I think so, as my Garmin didn’t pick up any signal until AFTER the first mile), but I was just feeling off.
When I got to about 2 miles in, I gave up and started walking. Maybe I pushed it too far running 17 miles on Saturday and needed one more day of rest? (Even though I wasn’t even sore?) I just didn’t think it was worth throwing it all away for a 3 mile run, so pushing myself through pain sounded stupid.
Karl met me towards the end and walked the rest of the way. I was so frustrated!
Tonight I have a group run with about 7 miles on the schedule… This is the run that last week I gave up on the second mile and had a lovely walk the rest of the time. I have no idea how it’s going to be like, if I’ll be in pain again (nothing hurts when I walk…), if I’ll be tired, if I can even complete the distance.
We shall see. Right now, I’m thinking that believing I can even run a marathon was very ambitious of me. There were a few tears last night since I know doing these long runs on my own are a recipe for failure. I get too bored. I enjoy running with company! I signed up for this thing thinking I’d have at least two people my pace to train with me, and turns out I’m on my own.
Thank god for Hugi for pushing it through with me last week.