I miss the runs. I miss the Wednesday night and Saturday mornings appointments. And sure, some days I didn’t feel like going, I hoped for rain, I wanted to sleep longer, or I even had a terrible run. Now that I’m in a place where I have no one to run with, I ache for those days. The days I had a choice to run with friends.
Remember how I ran not one but TWO marathons last year? Within 3 weeks of each other? And I promised myself I wouldn’t lose the endurance.
And sure, injury got in the way, but I still could run double digits – and that was only a couple of months ago.
Where has that person gone? I struggled on the one 5k I ran here in Manila getting a personal worst. I ran two half marathons earlier this year, and though they weren’t my best times, I was still capable of running them.
Now? I don’t think I could run 13.1 miles non-stop again.
How does one get out of a rut? Going out and running on my own is not working: it’s too easy to make up excuses. Plus, it’s not like I’m training for anything (and it’s not like here you sign up for races months ahead of time so you have a goal to work for – nope, here is at most a month before).
My attempts to find a running group near me have failed. Even the big running forum here, where I was hoping to post and find someone to run with, doesn’t approve my registration, weeks after registering, so I can’t even try to post.
Every day that passes I’m in worse shape than I was the week before.
And it’s not solely the run that I’ve been missing, it’s never all about that is it? It’s the camaraderie. The chit-chat. The conversations. The gossip. The way of getting updates on my friends’ lives. The laughs. All during our runs.
Running on my own is not nearly as exciting or as interesting.
I’m left to run on my own and I don’t like it. So I don’t do it.
Those who run solely by yourselves, now HOW do you do it? How do you get out there and just run? It was one thing to do it during my commute home, when I knew that it was only one day, I would have company for the other runs, but everyday? How do you even keep motivated?